24 March, 2009

Sheer pain

I'm realizing that I'm never going to be able to have the life I want, and it hurts.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

I think it starting to pick up for you, maybe it all works out in the end.

Kaiserina said...

Wow guys!!!!! I was always wondering what those messages were that I was always receiving in my inbox in Mandarin... I thought they were spam!!!

I was fooling around on my blog, and I finally ran all your comments through the Google translator...

When I read them, I was stunned, absolutely stunned! They were not spam, they were copious messages of encouragement from sweet people on the other side of the world from me!!! You had been helping me all along!!!!!!

I was trying to make my blog something different, something more serious... Maybe I should just go back to posting about my life? Would that be better?

I'm so sorry I didn't give you the attention you deserved. I thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement and tenderness and kindness, especially when I needed it most. You are all so lovely.

I can't express what I feel in English, I will try in Italian... siete tutti cosi' stupendi che... no no, in English, I must not be scared to say what I feel, right?

You are all soooooooooooooooo AMAZING and WONDERFUL and KIND that I am sitting here in front of my computer in Holland with tears streaming down my face like a monsoon...

I vow to make sure I pay attention to every single Chinese character that shows up on my blog!!!!! Thank you for those lessons, my teachers!!!!

Grazie. Many graces and blessings and good fortune on you all. Even the three people who actually did post spam! ;)))

Love,
Katy