Sheer pain

I'm realizing that I'm never going to be able to have the life I want, and it hurts.

Oh dear

I forgot I even had this thing. Not that anyone reads it. Not being defeatist, just truthful.

I've moved into a great place with some really nice people in a fantastic part of town. Ya-hoo. My life is going pretty well, exams are coming up, and I'm almost done my degree. Yee-haw.

I like being on my own, and I don't really miss my ex-boyfriend (the real one) that much. I went to visit him and go snowboarding, but there wasn't any spark or feeling of loss. I'm actually quite relieved.

I do miss having someone in my life, however. I like caring for people, and even though I find it hard enough just taking care of myself, I'd love to cook for someone and take them to interesting places and have fun with them.

I should get a dog.